Sunday, October 30, 2005 @10/30/2005 11:56:00 PM
Ouch! My blister is rather painful. Training.I'm the weakest link. Maybe they should do the "boot camp" style. Just shout into my face/ear. "U F**KING SIT UP STRAIGHT! BLOODY FOLLOW THE TIMING!! *&*()^#$#^$&*(#^$" instead of "jiayoU!" "Ziwei, don't stress k. Jiayou ok?" I mean I really really super duper appreciate those who turned ard or whatever to encourage me. but somehow it's not getting into my head. Sat, cindy: "I can't see that you all want it badly." This kinda hit me. Maybe I really don't want it badly. I'm not putting enough into db. I came to one mini conclusion. I dunno whether it's right or wrong. Those born on 1st Feb are individualists. That's me. Correct me if I'm wrong. I kinda had the good feeling last sat. I did twist. Felt good. After that I kept hoping that I won't lose this feeling. But still i lost it. I feel that today I'm the
ultimate culprit of my boat's inability to perform.
There's alot of things I wanna blog about. But i just wonder who read them and will bao1 dou1 me (sorry for being paranoid). I mean bitching sessions are inevitable. Or is it that DB gurls have this -> *hit chest*.
I was once having dinner with seniors only. And they were discussing about our rowing (SAVA/Tianjin was nearing). They were worried. They were focusing on a few rowers. Some were quite worked up when they talked about it. Some were trying to be more understanding. I can understand why they were worried. I was quite "scared" in a way then. I was thinking then when will my name be mentioned. I know it won't be long.
Resolution for now:
I don't wanna care what people think or say about me. It really drains you sometimes.
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach