Sunday, March 19, 2006 @3/19/2006 10:21:00 PM
Finally, I got
my very FIRST DB MEDAL. We fought hard. But losing by split second makes me hungry for the gold medal. I know I'm greedy... It was an emotional moment though. It's really like "we did it.. we finally did it..." For a moment I thought we got 1st, i raised my paddle up n cheered so hard. Saw boonchin mouthing the word "..by split seconds". Then i was like asking ppl ard me.. ya so it's "lost by split seconds". Now, I kinda understand the "1 Heart" part printed on our jersey. For the tertiary category, I really felt
1 Boat 1 Heart. Just how badly we all wanted it, I could really feel it. I'm real glad that we showed others what we can do. Honestly, I'm just disappointed bout the mixed open. I could really see some of us were really hungry for the medal, gold medal in fact. Once again, I thought we got 2nd but turn out to be 4th (heng i nv raised my paddle). It was real close but still. It didn't hit me that hard until i saw my "rowing partner". He just kept his head down most of the time. Could really really see his disappointment yet I couldn't do anything about it. I only blame myself for not being strong enough to last throughout the race. One small reason why I wanted to win a medal is to have a good reason for not helping my parents. It's just not justifiable to have my parents working so hard for me and I don't do anything to make them feel proud of me. Does it make any sense at all? haha.
What i really learned from this race is what nasiman told us during training over n over again.
The one who can last throughout the race will win. I think June race will really put us to the test. It's like at different points of the race, nasiman's words will suddenly flash pass my head. It will then be like "oh.. so this is what he meant by....." Some kind of
enlightenment u can say.
Anli was like asking me why i ain't that excited n happy by the fact that we won something. She could really read my mind. I was asking myself that too. But I couldn't answer. Why is there this empty part of me. What is that?
I thought he's cute but apparently koon was like giving me the disgusted look. Nvm. Hope he's just some minor crush. Out of sight, out of mind.
Met sathish last week. He was like so excited about telling me about the gurls he got to know recently. Then he kept asking about me, whether i have any scandal or know any guys or stuff like that. I just gave him a big fat NO. So, he came out with this
7 commandments for me to adhere to:
- Dye my hair.
- Wear heels.
- Know more guys.
- Wear more sexy clothes. (...)
- Carry nice small handbags. (He said the black blood bros bag i carry look like some monk's bag. ...)
- I forgot.
- Wear longer skirts, not mini skirts. (Sathish: "Your thighs A LIL TOO BIG". I wanted to slap his face.)
I will try to follow though 3 is abit hard.
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach