Back. I can never feel the sense of urgency for exams. I like to do things at my own sweeeet time. I need to feel it. Econs is really a taxing subject.. was reading through the textbook in e lib with kah, anli n xy. I felt like my head was bursting. I literally pulled my hair in front of them. A bit exaggerated though. Kah said I look scary. I need to PIA this weekend. Next week 3 trainings. Sharks.
It's really irritating that I cannot plan my time well and stuff. I can't "multi-task". Really 1 thing at a time. I don't like the feeling when i study, i worry about OTOT. When i OTOT, i worry for my studies. To be honest, I really wanna just study for now. Who doesn't want to. But when I ran on tue and did gym on thurs, I know I can't stop. I felt tired during the run. Worse during gym. Totally no strength. Endurance set indeed. How. I really need to train hard. but i really think not now. But June race is coming so damn soon. Now that Cindy talked to us about LDMR (Law of Diminishing Marginal Returns). Really have to train hard and really peak before LDMR sets in. The feeling isn't nice....
Just heard from my sis that my dad's friend told him that staying in hostel will kena bad influence. So my dad is worried. Guess my sis is too. Ma too. Who wouldn't be worried. Sometimes I feel worried for myself too. But what youngsters really want... Freedom. Ok at least for me. I don't like to feel restricted. The more i feel restricted the more i wanna free myself (duh!). I know that they are worried that I will "fall".. I know this is really childish, but if you don't fall, you will never know how to walk. It's not as if i'm going to commit crimes and stuff... Too bad after I got dead drunk no one trust me anymore. Too scary an experience for them I have to admit... But if not for this experience I won't know Long Island Tea is a Killer and that my threshold isn't that great after all. Why must we follow such a straight path? At times I feel like making a turn and see how things are at the other side. There may be a U-turn sign ahead. If not I reverse all the way and get back to the straight path. Easier said than done though. But who knows things may be better and i nv have to U-turn. I don't wanna wait till when i'm old then I regret not doing anything now. I'm 20. Ok not very old but still old enough. Everyone worries for me i know. I feel that i'm going down the straight path just a few mini turns at time. Aiya.. why am I talking about this. anyway the straight path is not the bisexual way of thinking hor. lol.
That day Tavia and I wanted to go fongseng for tehtarik. J (i just think i shouldn't reveal his name even though not much of u know him) decided to join us. Reached there, he saw a friend. Tav and i went to take a seat while he left for 7-11 without telling us. Then few min later he came back and told Tav he hafta go back. He look like he's gonna pee anytime. We were like "???!!!!!". I made some guesses.. that gurl friend is his GF's friend. Bingo!! When we went back we went to ask him, he was like "YA!!! I was damn scared la". I was like OMG............... you could really see him still panicking.. Tav went to tell his neighbour. Were laughing at him. The neighbour was like "You Wose!".. He still looked very scared.. scared his gf's friend bao toh him that he was seen with 2 gurls. He ganjiong until cannot take it that he smoked again. They were like assuring him nothing wrong n stuff but he still cannot take it; while I was just like OMg. Lol. I just dunno to laugh at him or what leh. This shows that his gf really means alot to him I guess. But he's wayyyy too scared. Few days later I saw him. So i asked him "So, did your gf find out?" He was like "No.. Don't remind me alr.. that night i couldn't sleep la." I dunno why but I was overwhelmed by the whole thing.
Nice meeting up with Sarah who came back from London for hols. So pretty noww.. Lol. She said London no neoprint shop and she missed taking neoprint. So we took! She's like a neoprint freak during sec sch. I know why i like to take neoprint so much alr. cos it makes my face look flawless.
Read this from TIME:" "In Mao's China, the communists didn't eat babies, but they boiled them to fertilize the fields." -Silvio Berlusconi, Italian Premier, decrying communism while campaigning ahead of Italty's election on April 9 and 10."
Lol.
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