Monday, September 25, 2006 @9/25/2006 07:30:00 PM
Finally 1/2 day for myself. :) :) :) Just came back from the forum. Sean from canoeing told me something that makes me feel very puzzled "It's not right to ask people from other sports to try out your sport." It really left me "Huh?!" and Manda gave me the "..." look too. What kind of comment is that? Can someone enlighten me? Somemore is not I say one.
SAVA, the first race of AY06/07, has come to an end. It was a unexpectedly good start. But I failed in a way as SAVA was supposed to be an exposure for the juniors. Only manage to put 4-5 down. The more steady ones. Some were not ready as they were unable to keep up with our stroke rate while some show us that they don't deserve to be in. But I hope they trust me when I say that "it's a matter of time". I forgot to add something thought "... if you work hard."
Loosing by 0.09s was i-also-dunno-what-to-say. Somemore lose to the cheater bug. But it's the very zhuai team's ass that I really wanna kick. KNS. 4th was "so near yet so far". Of cos 4th in open category was a great achievement. But losing by SPLIT seconds has taught us so many lessons:
- COMPOSURE: stay calm in whatever situation
- LONG PULL: put it to our advantage
- LAST CHARGE: where we were "eaten"
- "NOT ENOUGH": - sir
Was so tired yesterday when Kevin came to see me. Was just telling him how I feel about everything now. Told him I'm a coordinator, not a leader. I merely trying to coordinate trainings with Sir and the team and plan trainings. Not anything else. Not inspiring in anyway. Not motivating in anyway. Everytime I see how the juniors look at me I will be very sad. This morning I received a sms:
she: Sorry I can't make it today.
me: How come?
she: Sick la.
I don't know why I can't help but to feel sad from this msg. You think I wanna be so kpo about your life and so busybody is it. I just feel that I need to ask. nvm. During e forum, 2 of them were sitting beside manda n i. Suddenly they shifted down to sit with the rest of the juniors. Manda was like "I so scary meh?". I also got nothing to say. I dunno why am I affected by that. Alot told me it's the captain thing. but I don't think so. Yihan told me I'm not fierce. So what can it be?
Nonetheless, I talked to her. I just feel like crying. Passion overcomes everything.
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