Wednesday, January 03, 2007 @1/03/2007 02:43:00 PM
Was talking to Angela online just now. It's true that I cut back on my posts now. Partially no much time, and feel restricted alr. She agreed that I used to be more "vocal" in a way. So I went back to read my older posts. True. I got more to say. Looking back... my year1 db experience has actually been great! I was a determined (ok at least that what i thought and as compared to now) girl man. Lol. So what happened to me now? :( Cindy told me before that she felt that i have lost e "feeling" towards rowing alr. Actually I do enjoy rowing. Maybe not as motivated as I used to be. I think this sem was sh*t. Manda agreed that we did a lousy job. I get affected by what others think abt me and their actions. I get so affected that it can just spoil my day. Aquarius tend to think alot... (that's what i heard). I get sad sometimes I feel that I have drifted from everyone. That I think I've only told Kevin and maybe Manda. Maybe cos he's the only one I didn't drift away from. It really saddens me when I don't know what people are talking abt and stuff. I feel really left out sometimes. But I feel that is part of the consequences i Have to face for the choice I've made: spending most of my free time with Kevin. Sometimes I do enjoy getting high or tipsy cos I get an excuse to pour out my unhappiness and insecurity. But I think I make a fool out of myself as well. Boo.
Things will change for the better this year.
♥ there's not a place
in heaven that we cant reach